Tag: depression

Happy Anniversary?

Wake up to the Facebook reminder. Six years of saying, “I love you. Happy Wedding Day Anniversary! You are my Everlong.” I even made a wedding video a few years back featuring all the songs played during our wedding ceremony. I included pictures and love quotes. I watched it this morning on the Facebook. Then I said, “Fuck you, Facebook.…

I’m Not Supposed To Tell You

I’m not supposed to tell you…  Every day I am screaming on the inside. I wake up in the early dawn hours covered in sweat. My hair is drenched, matted to the back of my neck soaking wet. My pillows are damp with fever dreams and nightmares. My world is crashing in on me as I lay alone in my…

I’m Not Thankful on Sammiches and Psych Meds Today

This past Saturday, I wrote a post titled “Dear Diary”. I always write words in my head, and sometimes I publish them. Other times, they stay forever housed inside my mind, or as a document on my computer. I wanted to hide the “Diary” post and the dark time it encompasses. However, by hiding this sadness then I would be…

Dear Diary

November 21, 2015 Dear Diary, I am sorry I haven’t written in awhile. It’s been a strange, wild ride since the last time I wrote. I’m a mom now. My son is almost 3. He’s really great, and he has this unbelievable amount of energy. He never sits down. Like maybe for two, possibly four minutes tops. It’s exhausting. But,…

99 Problems and a Baby Wasn’t One

Let’s gun it to 88 mph. Tonight, I would like to get in my time machine and slap the shit out of my old self. Once upon a time when I was 23 or 24 years old, I was having trouble dealing with the death of a loved one. I sought professional help. The professionals had every answer I needed…

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